Down

So I' m down.

This whole day I was
down.

The sun' s shining,
but I' m
down.

I ate,
was even invited, didn' t have to pay myself,
but I' m
down.

Will I ever be able to live a life
doing the things that I want to?

And don' t tell me, that' s what I should do anyway.

I have kids.

A wife who' s sometimes...
stressed.

Sometimes
evil.

But most of the time
poor.

I need money.

Need to sell my soul.

I don' t like myself, when I´ m
down.

In my business
it' s important to
smile.

I hate that and
hope to live
to see my kids as
grow-ups with bigger
smiles
on their
faces
than mine
right now.